As you may already know I’m a person of many passions. Gooning, making captions, drawing, playing music, animation, are just some of the things I love. One you are definitely not aware of is WOODWORKING. How does it have anything to do with this website? Let me explain.
I love anal and love fucking my dildos, and every time I’m riding a dildo I fantasize about the dildo coming into life and just raping me brutally. Fuck machines are an option but still, as long as I’m in control, it’s not really rape either. I want to be taken control away from, forced, raped against my will. Forcefully made to take it whether I want it or not.
So this mindset is where it all starts – DESIRE TO NOT HAVE ANY CONTROL
I don’t like to fantasize about things that are impossible to get. Also, when I have a very strong fantasy, I don’t want it to remain only a fantasy forever, I want to turn the fantasy into reality.
AND IT’S TIME TO TURN THE DILDO RAPE FANTASY INTO REALITY.
How I’m going to do it?
I will use my woodworking and carpentry background to build a device that will entrap me with a dildo in my ass. I want to have very little chance of getting out of it because if it’s too easy, it won’t feel real. I want to still have a SMALL chance of escaping, so that there is adrenaline, and so that my will can be broken, the longer I’m trapped. The chance of escaping has to be extremely small but REAL, so restraints and padlocks are not an option.
The device has to rely on smart design, uncomfortable positions, discomfort of trying to get out, geometry, and gravity. I want to be locked in place with gravity and geometry of the device only, so that escaping is VERY DIFFICULT.
After a long time of thinking about the design, what I came up with is THE PILLAR:
This image is a rough representation of the actual device. I created this image with AI and it is pretty close, but not EXACT.
The upper portion of the pillar moves up and down, allowing me to force the dildo in my ass, as I’m standing over it. The upper pillar will have a couple of rope handles attached to it, so that I can comfortably pull it upwards when I’m standing over it. The device will be designed in a way that prevents the upper pillar from moving down, but can freely be moved up. I will use a ratchet mechanism for that. On top of the pillar, there will be a dildo, or a smooth wooden dowel attached, depending on what level of difficulty I REALLY want to experience.
If everything goes as planned, I will pull the pillar up, place the dildo/dowel deep in my ass, as I’m standing over it in my high heels (to prevent myself from going to tip-toe to escape) the pillar locks in place and I’M TRAPPED.
I don’t want any emergency ways for me to free myself. If I put them in place, then what is the point in the first place? I want this experience to be as real as possible. BUT I also don’t want to potentially DIE on it if I really get stuck forever. In order to make it REAL but also extremely unlikely for me to free myself, I will place a phone in my reach, and I will lock the door to the building from the inside. If I get to a point where I really have to call someone (probably my wife) to help me, I will have to call her, she will have to come, BREAK IN the door, and she will witness me TRAPPED on top of a dildo, she will then be able to release the ratchet system and lower the dildo… If she even decides to do it… who knows… Also, to make it even MORE humiliating for myself, I will be playing BEAST videos on a tv in front of myself on a loop. The idea is for me to NOT WANT to use the emergency option, no matter how much I suffer.
That’s about it for the description of the idea. Next I will proceed to create the device. I am SO EXCITED for it… I want to get STUCK for real, I WANT to experience the ACTUAL rape by a device, I want to be held there against my will…
What’s going to happen? How is it going to feel? I have no idea… It will definitely be something I’ll remember forever.